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Friday, August 27, 2010

LOSS FOR WORDS

Loss for words

My mind wander
Ponder the words that use to rhyme
Now that the time has passed and a few more glasses tipped
Bottled eyes, my writings have so many disguises
I have a loss for words My mind use to perform plays so easily to display with a pen and piece of paper
But now and days I'm at a loss of words
Is it that my world know quarrels I've leaped many hurdles?
Fast!!!! YES my ambition is my steroid
A loss for words is because the beauty of my life has no description
I am SUBMISSIVE to new innovative additions
Not the depiction of what many would ever had thought to see I
I am she the queen of ultimate defeat against SOCIETY
I haven't even reached my peak
I am at a loss for words
Cause my world has no verbal description
Come here grab a seat get to sippin
I gotta a life of stories that will keep you entertained a few tears and a whole lot of pain!
On board I am with each and every dream or goal I have set
Better yet, I am the dream catcher GOD BLESS HER!
A loss for words
I am the child who gives
I may have lost my words
But I am so grateful God has allowed me to live!

FEARLESS

I have many things I use to believe Fearless
I have become to what I thought once was a lie..
Fearless I am that my heart will drop as light as a feather when you leave
Fearless I am that my tears will fill my pillows constantly with the thought you will not return as the man I thought I earned!
I am fearless to hear from those who hold their tongues that will become as ruthless as a gun in your absence
Had this been explained better than just the lame birds and the bees but better he will never love one who is like thee
No man wishes to be a woman's king but women live fairy tale dreams
Spreading our legs instead of our minds
Then in time we realize we were of the season not the reason, or lifetime
I REFUSE to spend a lifetime wondering if I was as rich tasting to him as white wine.
I AM fearless and as bold as Merlot Behold I am the one that holds you at night, willing to fight, but you deny me to be your wife!
I laugh with joy in my voice because I'm not the one who has to hoist your empty promises, your unfaithful believes, or worse your seed on my knee To say their daddy doesn't love me but he loves you as true as the sky turns blue, he just can’t afford you.
I am fearless because I refuse to be careless and think that you could ever love me more than the streets!

A Million

One would think that when the word a MILLION is said it means wealth, luxurious, miraculous freedom!
Building your own kingdom of lavish things that many only dream they could acquire to grow tired from!
Like the beat of a drum my heart has rung dry for the millionth time
Over exadorating, yeah it could be debated!
You were my lottery ticket I hoped and prayed that in time your numbers would be called in order, so I can border my heart around you.
But here I am I haven't won a thing!
I keep speaking the same ol things wishing for a ring not like the the dirt around the tub
But a metal that will rub me for all the right reasons, but I've found you are no longer in season, for damn sure aint the reason and apparently not for a lifetime of romantic rhymes! But for the millionth time instead of thinking about writing a rhyme that will highlight all your indiscretions your mess'n around your making me look like a clown
My million times are equal to a dime in your pocket take my blackberry plug it into a socket so you can have the power of my thoughts written from my heart that I crossed to die, stick a needle in my eye I won't cry no more!
I live the life that your whores adore, but I've told you this before I gues you just had to hear a little more or for the millionth time!
But of course you think you've scored the one in a million
I am refusing your invitation, now that I have taken a step back to peel back the layers I don't like what I've been eatin
So now I'm seeking just like you
I'm no longer your boo boo the fool!
So for the millionth time with out crying I tap out, I give up, I don't want what is less than the feeling of winning a million!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

WHATS UNDERSTOOD DONT NEED TO BE EXPLAINED!

Your delusions are amusing me
You created the previous debate but year to date you refuse to equate your lip action to performance in this less physical but attempted mental interaction
You've been placed in the directories of enemies I keep
You are in there like swim wear
Been there
Done that
Your reasoning's for seasoning my name with reckless allegations of chasing your whereabouts when you could find your own ass if it was in your mouth
To me the words like ungrown seeds you have tried to plant are equivalent to those who carry nap sacks and take naps and get smack for lack of obedience
Your apart of a bad batch, a horrible breed, one of those that make your Momma pray why me!
See man, I was trying to be respectful to you and your friends
But u continue to bend the truth
Lie like the snow, so cold, in hot hands
Your face and ears, can't hold what my will, will spill, so ill
It will melt your face and wait for you to awake
So I can hit you again drip drip you aint it you are just a piss pant chick
Part of a clan full of hooligans so I tell you come again
You reckless wanna be friend till the end like chucky I dump thee like rumpke bump beats that voice my dislike of thee!
Careless... So clear it is that I have abused the time given.
I've committed plenty of sins...
Healing is all I can pray for again and again...
As I continue to play the devils game counting the hours, the minutes before I can caress the flesh of one man I adore...
I'm a whore for every request he bless my ears with!!!
Care to LISTEN to my sins I commit so CARELESS for a minute in his space he create a blissful feeling, chills, thrills, right down to the bills.
CARE less about my exes I dismissed so far from my heart as though they packed up and moved to TEXAS.....
Careless, I have made so many messes but he could careless
As if he were molly maid having a hay day smoking the ya pushing to the side my borders, my cement walls, my clouds, the crowds of hounds
Turning my frown upside down, bringing about sunny days I am his baby!!!!
He call out my name so carefully holding my hand , being my man, being my friend, being care less, more like fearless is the love he posses for me...
Daring you to be careless and question his intent for me
Setting you straight if you wish to debate what we have equate to any thing less than what's spoken or catch yourself choking slowly
Hopefully it won't come to this...
He care less about what has happened but he can create a beautiful experience of less stress demanding I no longer be a mistress but his MRS....
Get this less carelessness I am blessed to have met you...
You are the best boo!!!
Sent from a sky that gleam blue, soul that hold a spirit of gold, a King that make my dream a reality!

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Drug Drought

Dat discolored woman you cheat on me with every month from the first to da fifth enable me to be stuck in this relationship equivalent to a rut...
WTF...
I've been whipped wit!
Katrina misses your wet lips and is astound when the 9th touchdown replacing my crown!
Turn my frown upside down pop green paper on these haters...
Magnum reminisce keep up laughter laid across the floor, I refuse to allow you to get bored!
Call me you lady in the light and any time after 9 I will be you lady red head!
But of course its only yours, dare u to ever get bored with my head board play Pearl necklace games..
So I will see you again after the 5th!

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

If You Want It Come Get It

If you want it come get it
I've lived it,
The insane,
The ones who wanna blame,
Those who are ashamed of where they laid
Even those who took me for the lame dame
Refused to understand...man
It would be a dang on shame for me to waste my time and tame ya!
If you want it, come get it
Words I will continue to spit
You wont have to wonder who the hell said it cause Like I said you can come get it!
I'll SIGN SEAL AND DELIVER IT! No contingent lyrics
Its what I feel so hold on tight and bare it
Again of course if you run a course in remorse that what I spit is less than what you fear isn't it
Its the manner in which I put all your dirty laundry out to hang so the neighborhood can smell your filth TIME AND TIME AGAIN!
Yeah you shouldha killed me cause my words will draw your life so vividly!
So if you want it come get it
I can continue to let you get it from the back cause you refuse to face me with your whack allocations of chasing you..???
You must have mistook me for BOO BOO the FOOL! Catch a Clue Curly Sue
If you want it COME GET you know WHO IS WHO!

Monday, April 12, 2010

OPEN

My honesty and ability to vocally exude emotions that many refuse to be seen...
Continue to be blinded... hide.. if
That is your character hairy situations will occur, catch a couple actions verbs and words that will leave your heart sitting on the curb YA heard!!
I don't ask the question I make it a lesson learned
Smash ignorance in a high pitch verbal session
Refuse to let you guess in or out are my feelings dealing with those who only expose stupidity Less adequacy better she than me best believe there is NOT once ounce of animosity
Confused cause I cut the tude off and feed you reality T.V.
Emotional and Selfish you say......OKAY!
I'ss accept it but again you'll never be guessing whether to approach
To pouch my jewel that rule my mental capacity like rhapsody I have an array of tunes that bloom better than anthing you could ever assume
Let me school you females that keep your hearts a hot as hell with wool covers over your eyes if you continue to wear disguises you'll continue to accept deception and of its mess and then you'll be guessing if you were wrong when your right don't get up tight
If what I write is right up your alley as heavy as a Denali
Rally around me so I can vent this aint no Question and Answer session I told ya'll before I am open to new lessons
With that said, I will always remain the main!!!!!
Hit the switch on your assumption of what I be dumpin is a question of my stance but over stand to understand my futuristic plans so come come come and come again!

Viciously Ignorant Cunt!

See I was told by this Virgo man,
Yes ill say it again VIRGO
He told me I fed his ego so I continued to cook
Even referred to some old books to keep him fed
From the window to the wall and all over the bed...
Now he says after a year passing, that I had the worst smelling ass and that is why he passed the ticket on getting his throat smitten to my wet kitten who the hell he kindin
My succulent juices that not his FINGER, or THIRD leg would refuse
So now I am amused and glad to say that YES my ass stinks
Cause I'm that shit salty that you can't get wit,
I cooked and cleaned, shined all your fake bling,
Took care of your three kids hair done clothes and fed them like that were kings and queens, Educational conversations I had your son elated by the picture you couldn't paint
I exposed them to new innovative thinking
While you excused from your daughter from your presences, cause for the 48 hrs you borrowed her was rather a front for the 50 stakes past due
AWW...Man I Wish I woulda knew the state WAS and IS still chasing you
The Incredible Mr. Ripley, its a pity that you think your accusations of my female sanitation lacks adequacy
Being that you refused to leave 257 EASTWIND St.
So before you reply to all with this rugged and raw statement
I think you better debate it with your penis cause its like every season that pass I get a dumb text or email from your ass so please excuse yourself you...
Viciously Ignorant Cunt!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Beautiful

Beautiful creation
Shapes and dimensions
I lay next to you sniffing your rare essence
Your presence serves a purpose
No more serpents in my grass
You have grasped what I need and have cleverly served it piece by piece
With every inch of your being
I wait patiently for your seeping joy that will employ my body 9 months
Disfiguring my flesh But, NEVER the LESS
Every curve is like a party to you
No corner unattended
You can only be descended from the greatest
As you wedge war with my rugged story
To breakdown my solid doors insuring you continue to pour into my glass, never left at half
Never a bore rather you are adoring, and charming
Harm me that could never be
You don't have it in your capacity
Hearts beat beautiful music like rhapsody
I will continue to have all your black ashy babies
Opposite of hate you feel for me
I hear the heavens applaud when you hit your knee to make your Queen
Angels begin to sing as two parts make one internal destiny
You are like a mirror to me what you reflect radiance and show me what I once couldn't see
You make me feel beautiful you make me breathe!

His Struggle

His debacle comes from his thoughtful actions
To make his childrens reaction make others say 'now that's what's happenin'
Not a crack addict, or a coke feind statisic.
A missing father rather don't bother trying to dawn him with that thorn filled crown..
He be daddy, don, the dude that makes the YUEN, MULLAH, he pay the cost to be the boss!!! Haus hard in 2010 cars!
He feed me with aspiration and patience cause he work like a hebrew slave, to insure all around him don't struggle everyday, but be able to claim things he couldn't see in his future a mile away. Bet, its cold sweat and tears, he never fears the idea of beating the streets to defeat what society claimed he was suppose to be!!
Money aint what defines him
It refines him reminds him of the struggle in his days making sure his children wont know how to relate to the struggle
Which equates to his absence from practices, plays for his growing actresses!
Happiness, is his rebutle though subtle his struggle is what makes me wanna cuddle him tell him one day babe you will come out at the top of the class best bet this struggle too shall pass!

GROWN

I've grown to understand that change is constant...
Constant is the feeling I get when I think of success..
The success of chaning my life to include becoming a mentally and spiritually wealthy GROWN MANS WIFE!!!
You see, the negative things between men and I that have transpired I've grown tired...
Restless blessed with the knowledge of knowing in this game of life I am a pawn but in your arms I am QUEEN and you serve as my prince delivered from our KING
I relate to you in the sense of the 73rd Pslams making my dreams my reality...
The change in me makes me dream of 4C's...
Four seasons are the reasons that God has seasoned our hearts
To search for parts of our spiritual foundation making our union more than an empirical result of possibilites
Don't mistake my love as a substitution to reltionships lost
For you are no where near a miracle
Sinacal of any one to try and debate that this creation has our ancestors turning over in their graves
They built me to have a heartbeat that can feel nothing but victory!
A grown woman I am not an oracle but in GODs plan
He made me change and grow to know that holding your hand in the day and not just laying in your bed at night aint the same!!
See you found growth in me change you can see that I am more than a king size sheets friend I'm not chucky but imma be here till the end
THAT my friend is growth!
Our two roads meet making this change, with no chains binding we from what has reminded me to live!
With growth I have become so dope no not coke like the bottle my shape is one many wish they could throttle
Scared of missing the old me, when you arrived
I knew it was my time to watch my body change but you remained smiling, rubbing me, caressing every roll
Loving me even when my belly became full grown
Growth never removed you me from the throne you created a life for me that I had never dreamed but quite often debated if it would be a mistake to wait
Growth has me patiently waiting in hopes that what I wrote and have quite often spoke will draw you close!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Mine Ever (Yanni, Blann, Green, and Wallace)

Last name PRINCESS first name AFRICAN
Like many, you hate this but that's your hatred for the fact you cant take it...my beauty out weighs IT!
Stand up if u stressing this so I can dismiss your acquisitions for debating this beautiful black lyricist
Never no whack dudes mistress
Smell what you have been missing Chanel, Bvlgari from exotic places
Cases with 4c's and door keys to a mansion you cant imagine you'd ever see
I won't claim the illest just yet
But best bet I wont be Bluffing, Huffing or Puffing over what you do
I aint to far from where many couldn't view
I wear many hats to get the stacks to keep me looking super PHAT Pretty Hot And Tantalizing I See you eyeing me and she KADI KATRINA yeah she is apart of me and grew to be
Phat too boo!!
You haven't even the slightest clue I make the hottest dude make my finger turn blue from the 4c's like Bea's ring you can be my Jay-z baby....
Let me upgrade you or better yet, show you the regret from those that how confess I'm the I'm the BEST.
I'm capable of the glow that has hearts froze, hand over fist covered by glove, raincoat, jimmy hat or u gets no love jack
I cant risk all that for this a short lived bliss of a kiss at the drop of your shovel, dig this, I cant miss This time to be called MRS...
You gotta get on MY LEVEL or Get out my LIFE class is DISMISSED!!!!....
So caught up in the motion unsure of the potion that I gave you through my thighs
Had you floating on cloud 9, never wanting to come down but wanting to climb up inside.
An addiction so sweet, I dare marry women's men to creep but I wont sleep
Or so I've been told, .......Salute the queen when you see me on the throne......
Stop presenting me with uncertainties dropping seeds telling me I need to be treated like royalty...
But ME + U= DISCRETELY?
Bra' please I know what I'm worth
More than the flesh that my mother gave birth on this earth no amount of girth can confuse me in this lifetime
I'm waiting on things you could never see.
I LET you touch me first and don't think its only behind the scenes
Pleasure without filling my purse or icing the most important finger
I gives birth to more than kids I'm about my biz 2 build a DYNASTY writing my bids!!!

My Light

My Light! My Shine! Humbled by the divine
No time for crying its not the young or the old but who I hold true to my heart never to depart
From those who loved me from the start
We go far We go hard We will fall apart
Only to be bought back to the light...Yeah we may fight... It'll get dark but I'll pass you the batteries for the light
So we can move forward conquering all borders
Take time remembering the delight for things that bring us back together Again and Again...
Remembering SIX DEGREES of Separation...HE MADE IT
In his home the tomb of light shine brighter than any light any living being could conceive...Not that I've seen it...
But I believe it, will take your blinders off and force you to take this walk with me on the journey forward not looking back on what has poured us with unbelievable pain in this game of life....
See in his life My light my KING, I sing praise not at the bling he and she display this aint a game its my light that save me at the end of the day leading me to my salvation where he will be waiting...
On the right side of the King...who never left me...Seeing me through the beginning and the end You will learn you are much more than a friend...
Isn't he of you cause he is so much apart of me...MY LIGHT his time I won't rewind I will repent and continue to spit poems that will hold em even if your brain don't hold them...
I pray that what was given to you today will forever remain...
I can't make you believe what I haven't seen but felt, with such spiritual wealth...
This isn't a game but today I'm saying the LIGHT is beautiful and I refuse to go away from it...
I refuse to waste time thinking of what time I have spent so distant from its beautiful rays
My skin glisten in the DAY and NIGHT despite the EARTHS changing light...
This poem is no clue that I relinquish my flesh unto you
To move closer to those who won't refuse my heart in the BEGINNING and the END
Remember one thing even if you are my FOE on the other side you are so much my FRIEND!
Till our physical end I pass on to you again what I haven't seen but believe in IS MY LIGHT and hope I will see you on the other side!

A Letter To The Other Woman

Hello Mistress,

As surprised as you are to receive this letter from a woman you wished you were, is how I was when I found that my husband didn’t chose to wear a glove with you, to come home and abuse the very sanctity of our vows and distort the views of our future. Instead I suture my heart every time I part my lips to say I love you and not get pissed at a man that I use to kiss and felt bliss from my toes to my finger tips! No worries I know none of this could amount to a pile of shhhh to you but the least you could do is here me through. Nine months has passed and your belly grew vastly from the seed he planted in you instead of me. I use to think that I wasn’t that woman no never not me! You knew of me so as a woman how could you allow this to be you have taken my once fairy tale dream and made it a nightmare for me! Though I may not be able to conceive he will never leave you or me now that you birthed a child to be dawned in blue, and the courts have ruled that it is he who should pay the monthly dues. I write this letter only to thank you cause it was better you than me to bear that dirty bastards seed, because of your pregnancy I wear a FAT 10 carat yellow diamond ring, and have 1500 sq feet of nothing but shoes that fulfill my ever wet dream, while you over there breast feeding. So you see everything has worked out perfectly.

P.S. I am ready for my Bentley and house in the Hamptons so get to work!

The Wife!