Innosence

Snoring...water pouring outside...as If God was weeping for what mental beating the devil had waiting for me...He crept through fire ...while I continued to lye still as if my body were sleep and my innocence play hide go seek...my panties began to leave my waist down to my knees and off my feet no longer could my innocence ignore the deceit he had in store for me...God should I wake to look the devils pawn in the face, but at eight years of age what was I to say? Thundering and lightning my freight heightened my legs tightened...but not enough! This didn't equate to me I was still counting my 1 2 3's and playing with barbie's...wait...you are family...don't take from me my innocence please!!! Just as I thought he would stop...I heard his buttons continue to pop!! My heart dropped as my innocence escaped my physical...hovering over me like a saint sent from the King consoling what left I had to hold while my tears fell and my body fold!!! I listened as she spoke choking on hope consumed with the devils smoke as his long black fingers with claws continued to reach my sensitive walls...My innocence began TO SCREAM while trying to paint my mind with a beautiful scene of happiness to remove my soul from this distorted story the devil has told...so still my body lay...trying to make of why he is taking her away? Now begging him to wait..PLEASE DON'T TAKE HER FROM ME...can't you see its not her time to leave This is she and I last dying plea!!! My tongue silenced as my innocence spoke again reassuring me in years time I will be fine!!! Informing me unfortunately for what you have witnessed I must leave and never be seen again I am so sorry my young friend!! But good life my beautiful queen!! At only eight years of age he take from you what was to be seen only by your prince's eyes no disguises to hide this!!! through this I have learned less love is so real when the devils pawn placed his ill will upon my body... I cried while sleep trying to rewind the scene to remove him from me to retain my INNOCENCE that was so casually dismissed from my physical presence!!!

I Fell In Love

I fell in love with the dark skies the stars and the early morning sun...
I fell in love with the whisper of promise that never left your tongue...
I fell in love with our rendition of Christmas in August...
I fell in love with the spooning and the mid dawn poking of my guts...
I fell in love with the warmth of flesh that cupped my breast and softly placed kisses on my lips...
I fell in love with drunken nights and passive aggressive fights...
I fell in love with your might to always be right...
I fell in love with a whole lot of ifs ands or maybes never searching for truth because it didn't equate to me and you...
I fell in love with your random deliverance of the nickname baby...
I fell in love with the idea of monogamy and what astrology told me we were suppose to be...
Soul mates is what is written and thought one day I would see...
Today I'm left only to fall in love with me!

My Appetite

My appetite is as large as life
Deliciously Appetizing Refreshingly Ridiculously Incredibly and Uniquely Succulent
A buffet is what he serves me from Friday to Saturday
Lust is at the very least I felt when he yelled across the bar being the cause of my instant waterfall
Who would've thought a year pass and he still be buttering my toast...
My appetite escaped to take the time and rewind to its flavorful memory
If you don't mind this meal is so Deliciously Appetizing Refreshingly Ridiculously and Uniquely Succulent!!!!

Consistency

Consistency can be the the root of all things we believe are to be seen seemingly okay...
Why can't we take time and wait for the greatest things we cant see today?
Just cause you are happy with me and my consistency does that mean we are meant to be? Time will be the tell of tales we speak into existence...
So what is it that keeps you here if you have fear that what I bear isn't real?
Consistency is the root of all things evil we as people refuse to explore more than what has presented itself relaying to all less self wealth and love...
I hug you praying you will learn to love more than what people are so willing to pour into your brain
Lesson to remain unlearned until you feel the pain of less growth
So I suppose you will never know until you let go of the consistency that lead you with the inability of letting go!!!

Today Is A New Day

Today is a new day
Why dwindle on yesterdays misty rains
Today is your time to say that yesterday's spilled milk should remain just where it laid
Whether or not you attempted to clean up the messes you create shows that you think about the tomorrows of learned yesterdays
Today I love you more than yesterday
Being able to say that even in his request of my last breathe life means more to me every single minute, hour, escalated to the 10th power!
Today is a new day
My hopes and dreams for your tomorrow's I hope that you learn to not wallow in your yesterdays sorrow's.
Today is a new day
I ask of you to knell and pray for your today, leave your yesterday where it lay, and thank him for your tomorrows!